Ugh. Sorry I haven’t posted in soooooooo long, I’ve been one busy bitch lately. I’m on the NC debate team, and we had a meet to run this weeken and UGH it was TIRING. Seriously. I was running, then I was at the judges table, then I was working consessions .

First of all, I blam this weeken’s outcomes on Frankie and Spencer, but mostly Spencer, though it was ultimately Frankie fault.

Here’s what I mean.

So, Franklin and I were meandering through the halways avoiding people telling us what to do which inevitably involved running up stairs (ugh),and we passed by Spencer, Alex and Dave, also known as boob guy, who I happened to be in lust with. For lack of a better word anyway. So yeah, we passed them, and Frankie was all “ooooohhh he is here.” and then he put my arm in a death clamp with his elbow and swung us around. I didn’t really want to talk to him, so I eventually ended up on the floor, arm still in a death clamp. Then Frankie sees Alex and says “Hey alex, help me get her to talk ot the guy she likes and alex is like “Who?” And Frankie nods to him and Alex puts his hand up for a high five, and I slap it away, then find my other arm in a death clamp by skinny-but-strong Alex. Obviously with my luck before Ican struggle away, Spencer notices and grabs one of my frigging feet, and then tells Dave to do so to my other foot and he’s all No, I’m not that mean.” Then looks at me and ss “Well, I can’t miss out on this so then they are dragging me, pointlessly across the floor until I aim for Spencer’s…uh guess, and he lets go and I stand and, with fury in my ees, and, if not for te tow ever present death clamps around my arms would have killed Spencer. But then Alex lets go, but not Franklin and gayjew says ” Hey, boobguy, she wants to talk to you,” and blah blah blah nothing much happens, Dave goes to rounds and we leave for the oncession stand where I freak about being dagged across the frigging floor.

I hate it when people do that. A lot. But anyways…

 Then later that day, Grace (Tallorange Teacr’s daughter, she’s nice) comes over and says something about how Spencer, idget that he is told dve about my crush-like-thing and I really wanted to kill ihm because that’s st not how it works. No.  like guy, guy falls in love with me, funny cloud formations&hearts, blah blah, will prolly end up dumping him ’cause I’m kinda flighty like that. Free bird and all that jazz.

And I tell Spencer this and he’s all “Yeah, but you’re hapy about it right, An dammint I couldn’t lie and say I wasn’t. Damn. So the next day I was, as always, on Consessions, and guess who shows up! Yeah, I hope you get that. And so He was totally hitting on me while I was working, saying he liked my shirt, and basically how I’m super sexy, ’cause I totally am,  and then Frankie comes back and is all “Boob guy come back” ’cause he dosen’t believe I actually had a conversation with him,ugh, and everyone was behind the counter after lunch, including him and the water cooler thingy as the only place to sit, but just everyone had to have soda/water, so he was sitting on my lap, and then I had to go make popcorn, so after that I ended up sitting on his lap, then other people left and I got my chair and we were talking and I said I’m such a band nerd and guess what.

We play the same instrument in band.

Pretty cool, huh? Well, I thought so ’cause I’m all *Band.*

So then we were all working for the between-rounds- rush and he left, then frankie and I and this other girl were walking and I didn’t want to do stairs, so we didn’t go with Frankie, and Grace saw us and was all “Smile, Wink* and left us alone and then we were sitting by some staris, and Frankie came rantiing about how I abandoned him or something. We stayed there for a few minutes, and then left and we ended up in the ROTC hallway and then Frankie had to go get cards for people signed so we were all alone in this semi-creepy ROTC hallway by the vending machines, which happen to be everywhere. And we have like nothing to say at all so he starts, like, putting moves on me or something and then random ROTC guys and debate people are just showing up randomly at moments, so then we’re all just walking to an even more deserted part of the hallway that ends up being a total dead end, but there is this place, right next to the stairs that is vacant and can’t be seen from any angle than directly in front of it or from going up the stairs on the left side, and then I was standing in ths corner and he was in front of me and then he puts his arm around my waist and just kinda kisses me. Like quickly all experimental kinda and I’m all “I’m such a loser,” and he asks why I say that and I say “’cause that’s a first.” and he’s all “First what?” “First kiss.” “Oh. Awesome.” And then we’re like making out for like 5 minutes and this guy comes running down the ROTC hall and we all scatter or w/e and the random dude is all “Hey, dave, have you seen this one guy, ’cause we’re playing hide and seek and there is nowhere to hide on this level.” And then he leaves and Dave asks how my first kiss was or w/e and I say it was ‘very nice’ and he says “akward?” and I say no and then after something else is said and then he gives me some shit about not wanting a gf ’cause he just dosen’t work well with girlfriends or something and he asks if I’m ok with that and in all honesty I don’t believe in friends with benefit or makeout partners or w/e(he never actually uses any of those terms to my face ’cause he IS a nice guy, he’s just…stupid.) and so I say “Actually no, I’m not.” And then we’re like leaving and he asks me if I hate him. “A little bit.”

See I wouldn’t have been so depressed when Spencer encountered me all alone if a) I wasn’t tired and b) if I felt I hadn’t been led on. So, yeah, Spencer adn I go to the back staris and talk and he’s all “I told you he didn’t want a serious realtionship” and “He likes you, he just knows long-distance relationships don’t work,” and the worst, “Hey, at least you finally got kissed.”And then Zack and Chris came to the back staris and saw me and spencer and thought we were together and it was funny ’cause ew. But here’s the thing. There is no actual proof he liked me, ’cause people in debate lie like no others so for all I know I’m just some random freshmen he pretended to like all day so he could make out with me or somehting, which is most likely true and so I feel like total shit and I can’t stop thinking about how I shouldn’t have said “Actually no, I’m not.” ‘Cause I think I really screwed up there. Soi now I wish I hadn’t done that, and I wish I wasn’t just some random freshmen chick that matters not to his junior ass. And then after the meet ended officially and Dave left Grace asked me about if we were together and I said “No.” And told her all about the ROTC hallway thing and she asked if he was a good kisser and I said “Not really at all” (Sorry for saying that, I had no background info about that, I mean how the hell would I know,right?”) and then I said he was kind of and asshole, but It was probably just me ’cause I felt all rejected.

Ugh.

So I blame Spencer and all guys are idiots and I broke up with Cameron, obviously, and so now he’s gunna hermit himself ’cause he was like in love with me, so now I have to come up with plan “MDLMSHRWAMHM” (Make dave like me so he realizes what a mistake he made.) And I will conspire with Spencer and stuff and w/e.

So far I’ve gotten every guy I ever really wanted, So I’m on a winning streak. Hope it still works. Karama’s gunna kill me for typing that. Or punish me or something.

 Sorry Karma. Sorry Cameron. I know I kinda cheated on you with a guy I’d known for like 4 hours, but I did more with him in those 4 hours than I did with you in 4 months. Forgive me, if you ever do happen to find out. Sorry I broke your heart as well. Sorry I blamed Spencer and Frankie even thought it was my fault for being stupid. Sorry I’m being all bipolar in his post. Sorry I went to Spencer for comfort before you Frankie. Sorry I called Dave and asshole even though he’s a nice guy.

 Damn, that was a lot to apologize to.