I don’t understand why I am so confused. I mean, I’m never like how I am now, or never have been before. It’s all really unnnerving. All my friends say he’s not worth it, or I’m too good for him or whatever, but they don’t actually know him. And usually they would be right about that.
But here I am, a month after ~or so~ and I’m still confused.
I mean this has happened once before and I dumped his ass for good and never gave it a second thought, so why in hell is this situation different? Ugh, are you getting my drift yet?
And of course some think I only still like him because I want a bf, but I’m not even sure. It’s like people are telling me what I’m feeling. So if I’m confused, how can I tell if something is real or not?
IT’S SO DAMN FRUSTRATING!!
Either my friends are right and I’m fooling myself into believe somthing untrue, or they are wrong and I really do like him.
I thought ~a few weeks ago~ that we’d never speak again and I’d live on with life thinking he was scum, but now it’s like he’s actually tired of me hating him. Or something.
And I can’t stand how he looks at me sometimes. No kidding. It sucks. Like he’s guilty or sorry or something unidentifiable by my limited vocabulary.
And then there’s the whole “I kind of like a guy I hardly know” thing, but he’s cool and has awesome hair ~goes to KW~ and well, you know how it goes. Or maybe you don’t ,but I am NOT going to ecplain it because if you’ve never met someone you hardly know and like them, A]you’ve never been to the library with 13 people or B] you dont meet new people a lot. ~or C]ou’re not as amazing as I am, jk~
Ugh, so I’m am unusually confused~unaturally confused~ and I don’t know who i can trust to tell me the truth. About me, about him, about how fate is screwing with my head to see me suffer, whatever.
I just need some help.
